Stuff that’s in my head…

With a silly post title like this, you’re probably afraid to read on. The stuff that’s in my head at the best of times is usually a bit nuts, especially when I don’t have a clear plan for a post. I’m having one of those times when I’m wondering what’s the point of writing at all. There’s nothing exciting to report guide dog wise these days. We aren’t going anywhere extraordinary, so Sibyl’s work is as good as it needs to be for now. Recently though, I’ve been reading back over posts, and it’s nice to have memories of things I’ve done and how things have changed. Sometimes I feel like I did a lot more and was happier at particular times, but suppose that’s the way life goes. It’s nice to look back over conversations I’ve had through the comments on my posts, and the 30 challenges idea is helping me to stay motivated to write as well.

Things have changed a lot over the last 18 months, from the time that I went training with Sibyl. Many of these are things about me that people would never notice, but I do. Having to go training sooner than I expected pushed me out of my comfort zone, and made me think about what I was doing and what I wanted and needed for myself. I questioned a lot of things, including myself all the time. I made decisions that were tough, but were probably better, even if it didn’t always feel like it. I’ve learned a lot about myself along the way, and I’m still learning! I won’t bore anyone who is still reading with the details about how I’m doing that, but basically if you have to change things, you really have to be in the right frame of mind to do it. For me, learning about cognitive behaviour therapy (purely out of curiosity) really helped me more than I’d expected. Spending lots of time outside walking, cooking and eating better, yoga and volunteering, among other things help.

I’ve been asked to speak to approximately 90 children in my local primary school next week as part of a program they do called ‘friends for life.’ It’s also based on CBT, and this is the second year that I’ve been involved. I have to tell them about my experiences of school, life in general, friends, people who have been my positive role models, and how I face and overcome challenges. These are all things I’ve been thinking about a lot recently. So now I just have to put something together to make it child-friendly and interesting to eleven-year-olds. I’m going to finish by telling them about my own 30 challenges idea, and encourage them to challenge themselves to do one new thing that they’ve never done before that will put themselves out of their comfort zone. I want them to see that challenges don’t always have to mean scarey things that we don’t like doing. I wonder what they will come up with?