My job at the moment depends on funding, which could run out at any time. I’m always wondering what I will do when it does, and I want to be even slightly prepared. I like the building, the people I work with and the work I have done here, but it can’t last forever. I want a change, not necessarily as soon as possible, but I do want to do something different.
I couldn’t imagine studying full-time again, but maybe if I found a course that I knew would be useful, and if I could do voluntary or freelance work as well I’d consider it. I don’t want a job for the sake of it, just to get money. My worst nightmare would be going to work every day, to a job that I hate, and wishing I could do something else. My work would be terrible and I’d be miserable.
I’d hate to be unemployed for a long period of time too. The longer you are out of work, the more you start doubting your ability and it doesn’t do your confidence much good. That’s what I found between university and my first work placement anyway.
The main problem is that I have no idea what I want to do. People always ask me, if I had a dream job, what would it be, and I honestly don’t know.
I know all the things I don’t want to do. I couldn’t work in an office all day answering phones or working with computers constantly. I’d go crazy. I have thought about counselling, but don’t know if hearing about people’s problems and trying to advise them is something I’d be any good at. Teaching doesn’t appeal to me, and my mum’s ideas of law or physiotherapy don’t interest me either. It would be great to have my own business, but I’m not a business-minded person at all.
I enjoy working with audio and sound, as the work is completely accessible to me. I like radio work, but know that at the minute I wouldn’t want to be a presenter. I like editing and putting radio packages together, and I know this is always something I can do as voluntary work.
I considered music therapy when I studied at Queens, but soon realised I need to be a better musician, a good singer (I haven’t got a note in my head) and be able to work in a wide variety of settings.
I considered sound engineering, but the physics of it put me off. It’s something I haven’t looked at in proper detail though.
I would like to work with animals but it’s probably an unrealistic option.
Finding a job has never been an issue because I am blind. It’s my indecisive brain that’s the problem, not my eyes. If I really really want to do something, apart from drive or fly a plane, I’ll usually try and find a way of doing it. The problem with being blind is that you can’t really get work experience easily. You can’t get a summer job somewhere and see if you like it. With a lack of work experience, it’s difficult to know if you’d really enjoy something. It’s also difficult to apply for jobs that require some sort of experience.
I’m not sure where I’d like to work or study, but I suppose that depends on what I decide to do in the future. I’d hate to move somewhere where I don’t know anybody, unless the job was just amazing! Having O.J will make moving anywhere a lot easier. It will be nice to learn new routes with him as well. Dublin is so busy and expensive, but I know there are more options there. I really like Cork but it’s the other end of the country! Belfast is probably my ideal location if I move away from home.
There are some other things that add to my dilemma too, but I think that’s enough for now!
I’m not sure why I’m writing this. Maybe writing it down will help. Maybe somebody can suggest something that I haven’t thought about. Even a link to a website, list of possible courses or your own experiences might be useful. This is one thing O.J can’t help me with, so any thoughts or ideas would be really appreciated.